Black And White

I am mentally exhausted and wrote this piece of C**P

2009-11-24T15:44:00.005Z

Got back from holiday 8 weeks ago, now I can said final year is here and exam is not that far away. I am so bored from my revision now but I don't want to go home yet so might as well type something on this blog since it had been sleeping for quite some times. Just a brief recall for what I did since I am back.

First and Second week:

busy with clinical project
preparing for mtas
attended lectures which everyone kept saying is for F1 and F2 (internship) instead of final year.
I even remembered there is one lecture on how to handle stress during foundation programme. All sorts of things came up during that lecture.

Third, Fourth and Fifth week:

got posted to Enniskillen for 3 weeks medicine posting (some peripheral hospital is like a world for itself)
cold cold hopsital and accomodation. I will say is the coldest hospital that I ever been. No heating in the room at all. Everyone have to wrap themselve up in the halls. But one good thing is the accomodation is in the hospital, so if you didn't go out you are basically 24/7 in the hospital.
questioned badly by the consultant make me feel like I am totally not prepare for final year yet. (Not that I am now but hope I will be in few weeks time)
submitted my MTAS and announced to all my friend that I didn't apply Northern Ireland for MTAS, instead I applied England. Hope I can get it. Lots of explaination was done for not choosing NI..
Had a luxury and expensive birthday dinner in Erne (celebrate one of the SHO birthday)
Get to become a book worm in Erne.
Spent most of the time talking C*** with Wei Ming and Daniel in Erne..

Sixth and Seventh Week:

Cardiology in Royal Victoria Hospital for 2 weeks
Didn't go in for full day and spend most of my time studying
Celebrated my 23rd birthday thanks to all my friend.
San Fui flew over from Barrow to suprise me during my birthday (Thanks Fui)
Thank you everyone for all the presents, cards and wishes
Get my swine flu jab; isn't that bad only had sore arm for few days.
Get drunk again this birthday but isn't as bad as last year.
Watched 2012 (amazing, recommended) and New Moon (mmm not for guys, for gals; all the gals screamed in cinema when Jacob took off his top)

This week, I am having my self directed learning week which for the past 2 years I called it extra holiday but not this year. This year self directed learning really meant to be a study break. I had been camping in the library almost everyday. Camping in this new university main library.

Comments for this library:

The design is great and modern
Get to sit the side and next to it is botanic garden so get some nice view as well whenever it is sunny (which is not that often)
Comfortable chair
Get to borrow laptop from library for 3 hours without any website restriction. (The library computers are always not available and they restrict all the social website during office hour, with this laptop, I get to blog, facebook and watch youtube in the library without bring my own laptop which I am doing it now)
The window curtain will close automatically whenever is too sunny outside...

Well after all the positive comment then come to negative comment. (Learned this during GP attachement, we should always give positive comment before negative comment)

sometimes can be quite annoying that the windows will automatically open and close which is very noisy and make the library cold. It happened all day yesterday but amazing that it doesn't happen today.
the lights will automatically turn on and off according to the brightness from outside so you will easily get distracted (or maybe only for me)
no phone zone in the library so everytime have to run all the way down and go out of the library to talk on the phone ( I know library isn't suppose to use phone)

I am just sitting here, outside is dark and raining, my paediatric textbook is in front of me and don' feel like continue but I know is not gonna happen. I have to go back.

PS: for SO-p, sorry I don't think I am going down to Dublin during January exam coming... Sorry sorry...

Old Memories in Ipoh

2009-09-12T02:58:00.004+01:00

Yesterday when I woke up, I just realized I have nothing to do today except need to go travel agent and settle some documents and that's all. I finished my clinical project as well..

Being alone at home I have no idea what should I do. After I settled my stuff in travel agent and had my breakfast, then I decided to drive around Ipoh. Went to the place that I used to hang out when I was a kid. I went to my old house and my primary school friends' house but not going in instead just drive past. Remember last time when I was like 9 or 10 years old used to ride my old bicycle and go around the whole housing area and have some bicycle friend as well. Anyway that's really long time ago, I guess I can't recognize them even if I meet them.

Then I went to my nanny's house which I used to go there every morning till my school time or go there after school. I think this went on until I was Standard 5 when one minor accident happened on me.. Is a road traffic accident. The house did have some changes and I was wondering whether I should go in and say hi, but I didn't just because I just wonder what happened if she can't recognize me or she isn't in. Imagine last time when I went there was like a small boy and now I am like 23 so I didn't go in...

Then I went to my primary school teacher's house, I used to went to there for tuition in Standard 6. She was my standard 6 class teacher. I remembered I met her 3 years ago in Jusco and we just chat for awhile. Yesterday I was having problem locating which one is her house because is a teres house and all the house looked the same to me...

Then continued driving around and think back what I did last time... Just to catch up all the old memories... All my old memories including my childhood in Ipoh... and I realized actually I do have lots of memories in Ipoh..

Malaysian Timing

2009-08-20T07:39:00.002+01:00

Sitting here with my laptop on my lap and TV is on, nothing nice on TV, just wanna keep it on to make the house not that quiet and get some background noise. Got back from hospital not long ago and wondering what to do. I know I need to get my clinical project done but not now. I just don't feel like doing it because I am lazy.

Outside is really hot and sunny, just make me don't feel like going out and wanna hide at home. Tonight gonna go out with friends to watch movie, if I am not wrong I think we are gonna watch District 9. I am not sure my friend told me that he bought the ticket last nite and he just told me time and place. Then I asked him the time that he gave me 8.30 is the movie start at 8.30 or we are gonna meet up at Jusco at 8.30 and hang around till movie start. This is a very important question and this is the art that I learnt from them. Remember the first time I met up with them at nite to Yum Char, they said meet up at 9.30 and I being NAIVE and reached the coffee shop at 9.25 but ended up sitting there alone till 10 before I can see the shadow of one of my friend and the rest only arrived by 10.30. So I have learnt this habit from them and be late whenever I am going out with them. I talked about this to my friend and he said no choice he learnt it from the rest of my friends. I think this is sort of the Malaysian thing or so call Malaysian timing in Belfast because I know someone who is always late haha... I think the rest of the Belfast people know about this as well.. So tonite movie start at 8.30, so I am not gonna be late and I bet my friends wouldn't be late as well.

After posting this blog, I don't know what to do. Today one of my MO (Medical Officer) said she is oncall tomorrow so if I wanna go to Labour room then she can allow me to do some procedure under her supervision. Then I said yes definitely because last week I did my posting in labour room for 1 week and it was really boring because I have nothing to do and everyone is so busy, no one is free to allow me to do some procedure. So this is a good chance for me but have to wait till my MO oncall but only start from 5 or 6pm. When she asked me to come, I doubted for awhile and thinking what should I do from 11am till 5pm which I have nothing to do but at the ed I told her I will be there. Maybe I will bring a book to hospital or I will come home and go back in the evening. Since I have nothing better to do at home in the evening.

Summer Holiday

2009-08-18T05:32:00.002+01:00

Now is summer holiday and I am back in Malaysia 1 and half months ago and my holiday is gonna over in 1 and half months time as well...

So soon that fourth year is over, finished my fourth year with Paediatric. I will say I did enjoy my paediatric posting but I wouldn't say I enjoy it a lot. I am not sure why, probably is the last posting of the year and I am tired of the long year so I couldn't take the such a heavy posting before my holiday start. Or the other reason is baby likes to cry... They just cry all the time and non stop, you just can't control them. Most of them came in with Upper Respiratory Tract Infection and having a hard time to examine their throat and ear. At the end what I learnt was have to ignore the kids even if they cry but still have to complete your work Well anyway the longest year ever is over and probably is happy that at least I finished 80 percent of med school or maybe the scary part is Final exam is less than 6 months away. Let's not think about the final exam, I just tell myself that I am not going to do any revision during this summer holiday and I just wanna enjoy till the max then only I start to work hard after my holiday.

Actually my 3 months holiday isn't really only holiday, I need to do 6 weeks elecitve and clinical project. My clinical project progression is really "good", I better start as soon as possible. Home being home and home is really great and demotivate me being hardworking. I wanted to do my clinical project since my first week of holiday but now I only completed 10% of it.

Anyway I am still wondering whether I should go back to hospital for Houseman teaching, even though I am not the houseman but I think I should go...

2009-03-28T08:54:00.003Z

This morning I woke up at 7ish without an alarm and I think last night I slept at 1ish I think. Well it may sound long to you but for me to wake up at 7ish without alarm is amazing because I had been sleeping a lot last week regardless whether I am tired or not. Probably is something wrong with Craigavon Hospital.

Well is good for me to wake up so early and theoretically I should be in hospital by now instead I am lying on my bed and surfing internet aimlessly and keep playing the same song over and over again. Not that I like the song a lot just that I am lazy to type song name on you tube, and now I am blogging again. Doesn't make sense (Are you insane? or bipolar disorder? Don't ask me any question further than that, I can't remember my psychiatry anymore) Outside now is 4 degree celcius, I thought spring is here long time ago? I am not sure last week was warm and sunny and this week is cold and windy. I can hear the wind blowing sound in my room and this is the main reason why I am still lying on my bed. I shouldn't have promise to go in during weekend, at first I thought no harm going in during weekend but actually whenever weekend is here you just want a break and I ruined my own break by going into hospital. I think I am exaggreating here, actually isn't that bad just that the weather put me off. But since I had promised to go in means I have to go in soon (probably still laze around for an hour Lol... )

My friends tonight is Earth Hour... 8.30pm k? I am still thinking what should I do in the dark for an hour. Hope isn't sleeping...

Looking Through

2009-03-28T00:14:00.003Z

After finished watching one movie, I have nothing to do and don't feel like going to bed yet then I looked through my blog. It did remind me lots of things, even I can't recall some of them. Times really flies, memory can only keep forever if you really want to.

I did realize that I seldom blog this year (08/09). Well there is a few reason that can explain this:

Third year is free
Fourth year is busy
Jeng Haw you have a sad life
Jeng Haw you have a boring life
Jeng Haw you are lazy

Well I am not sure which is the real reason but probably is bits of each reason. But sometimes whenever you feel like typing something, blogging is quite nice. You wouldn't care whether people do read your blog or whether they enjoy reading it or not (well definitely I hope my friends do enjoy), just that is another way to express yourself. Now is because I am bored and I am lazy to do my work even though I know I have to prepare something for tomorrow or technically later today but I think I am gonna leave it till the morning before I go in.

Today I contacted my high school friend, and he was asking whether I am going home this summer and he is graduating this year and going home this summer as well. Then he said actually we didn't meet up for 5 years since the day we collected our SPM result. I am like yeah is really a long time. Probably this is quarter life crisis, start to realize that you have friends that you haven't seen in ages. Sometimes you do have some friends that you didn't contact at all. I was told by one of the retired consultant, when you get to 30s you will realize your friend can be as young as 20s to as old as 70s. Whenever you get to my age (his age 71), most of the people that you are gonna see is younger than you except your retired friends.

Well I am only 22 now, going to 23 this year so isn't that bad. My friend ranged probably is from 17 to 30s or maybe older. Depends how you define friendship.

2009-03-27T21:30:00.002Z

1 week before Easter break, really can't wait for Easter to come so that I have the chance to escape from Belfast. Not that Belfast is that bad, just wanna escape from all the work So that my mind doesn't have to think about study, audit, exam and papers. This make me feel like my holiday already started but another week to go but this Easter break isn't gonna be as relax as Christmas break. Obs and Gynae exam is waiting for me 2 weeks after Easter holiday and gonna do bit of my audit as well so that I can pass the data to my supervisor.

Tomorrow night 8.30pm is the Earth Hour thing, I have spoken to my housemate and they are agreed to support Earth Hour by offing the light but we want to remain our laptop on so that we wouldn't be bored. Which is really true if not I wouldn't know what to do for an hour. Stay on the phone for an hour or talking to my housemate in the dark for an hour? Well I don't know.

I just keep thinking that today is Saturday, probably because I only went in for 30 minutes to see my consultant then I flee to city centre .Today weather was great except for the strong and chill wind.

This week isn't that bad, since I got all my deliveries done, so I don't have to wait for babies to come out anymore which is good. Actually I don't mind waiting but come to think of it, if you doesn't have to be there and just sit there and wait for 5 or 6 hours might as well go home and do some work which sometimes this is not the case. But I think delivering babies is amazing. Is like waited for few hours and finally he comes and the mother have to coordinate with the contraction to push. One thing that some mothers do forget sometimes is the placenta. Once they got the baby, the forgot that the placenta is still in their uterus and a poor medical student is holding the umbilical cord waiting for the mother to push to get ride of the placenta. Then the poor medical student can go home.

Once 4.30am, baby head finally came out, another strong contraction the shoulder came out as well, but there is a flush of amniotic fluid comes with the shoulder, so I was soaked in amniotic fluid, luckily I was in Scrub but my socks couldn't escape I have to take it off and go home without wearing socks. Then I have to wash myself thoroughly early in the morning before I can get to my bed and sleep....

NB: by the way I saw the newborn triplets, they are tiny but cute...

Earth Hour

2009-03-22T10:52:00.002Z

28th of March 2008, 8.30 pm off your light for an hour to support Earth Hour... I am thinking of doing so but have to talk to my housemate.... Well if you see this then get back to me k? (I mean my housemate)...

2009-03-14T13:12:00.000Z

2009-03-11T17:45:00.001Z

2009-03-11T16:33:00.000Z

Jeng Haw stop procrastinating and be more organized...

2009-03-11T16:20:00.001Z

Jeng Haw Stop Complaining....

2009-03-10T08:49:00.001Z

Obs and Gynae

2009-02-25T22:53:00.003Z

This week I started my new posting and today is my 2nd day in the hospital for Obs and Gynae. I think I like the obs part but not so for the gynae part. Today I took part in C- Section of a mother, is like so great. Open the uterus, penetrate the membrane, take out the baby.

Once the baby is out, she started to cry and her hands and legs are moving, she will just grap your index finger which is covered with sterile glove. Is so amazing that when the baby is delivered safely, the whole theatre changed from tension and serious atmosphere to a cheerful atmostphere. A new life welcome to the world.

Baby's mother and father can't wait to see the baby and hold the baby. First bonding between the baby and the parent. Life is really great and amazing.

Pointless

2009-02-17T12:10:00.002Z

Alarm went off this morning, my brain was telling me that I should wake up and get to library and study. Please don't think that I am a nerd, my exam is in 3 days time and I got to travel down to Dungannon (an hour away from Belfast) tomorrow for a full day simulator teaching. When my brain was trying to send out all sort of signal to my reticular formation to make me awake, my skeletal muscle refused to move. Eventually this occurred for 30 minutes and finally both my brain and muscle decided to move.....

Looked at my notes and books, I have no idea whether I am on the right track or not, I am not sure whether I have covered the right topic and I hope that I am going to cover most of the topic.

The bad thing about studied at home is you will distract by your laptop... ( I bet everyone will agree with me....) I ended up blogging after so long...

Exam and exam, sometimes I just wonder how many years of exam do I have to sit before it comes to the end. Honestly I don't know, I don't have a clue for this question.

Obviously I am blogging aimlessly, every paragraph is just talking about random stuff...

If you didn't break any rules before in your life, does it mean that you have a boring life?

I am not sure about the answer but I am certain that I need to stop typing something pointless and go back to my notes.....

Knocking on Heaven's Door

2009-02-17T12:03:00.000Z

2009-01-11T16:56:00.000Z

This blog need a break....

I need a break

2009

2008-12-31T17:12:00.003Z

To all my friends,

Happy New Year..

Happy 2009..

Probably now is already 2009 at your place but in Rome is still 6.13pm and can't wait for the countdown later... Going home tomorrow....

Hopefully I will update my blog after the trip...

Happy New Year

Cure for AIDS?

2008-11-13T20:30:00.003Z

Reading the news and this caught my attention. It was on Sky News this noon as well...

Doctors say marrow transplant may have cured AIDS

Hopefully is true....

Fire Alarm

2008-10-06T21:12:00.003+01:00

There is 5 peoples staying in my house...

My "lovely" housemate 1 went to peripheral hospital for posting so he/she isn't in tonight.

The rest of us (4) having dinner at home.

My "lovely" housemate 2 finished his/her dinner and said not enough so he/she decided to make toast. Guess what, he/she burnt it. I thought like okay only waste 2 pieces of bread. But I heard some funny sound in the house. My "lovely" housemate 2 said OMG fire alarm went off. I thought the house fire alarm wasn't working. But my "lovely" housemate 2 acted calm and walked towards the alarm. So we thought my "lovely" housemate 2 did experience before, that why we didn't go with him/her. But waited for few minutes and it didn't seem right. So I went there as well..

No matter what I do, I couldn't turn it off. I opened the door and I am glad that fire brigades didn't come to my house.

I have to call my landlord, for once, my "lovely" housemate 3 appeared in front of me with my handphone really fast and with the right handphone because only one of my handphone had his number. So I called him...

I: Hey T, sorry to bother you...
T: Jeng How are you... What's that noise?
I: Sorry can I ask how to deactivate the fire alarm?
T: Jeng!!! Are you trying to burn my house??
I: Oh no... my housemate burnt the toast...
T: Jeng... don't burn my house k?
I: So how to off it?
T: Turn the key and press the reset button...
I: Okay I will do it........ Oh it doesn't work...
T: Oh you try again.... I will come down now...

(I tried to press again and it finally gone off)

I: Oh the alarm is stopped... So sorry for the trouble...
T: Oh great... is ok not your fault...

I am like....

Then all of us back to the dining table... I am like... OMG.. How can I face T again in the future?

My "lovely" housemate 4 was eating his/her chocolate cupcake, the box said a cupcake a day will make your grumpy away. So my "lovely" housemate 4 offered me one and I ate it. After eating, my "lovely" housemate 3 looking at the box to look for calories. And he/she said:"If I said this out, I will make the situation worse... The cupcake expired last week."

I am like WHAT.......

That what happen in my house...

"Long" Weekend Break

2008-10-04T23:50:00.003+01:00

Counting down before my holiday ending... Another 24 hours and my "long" weekend break is going to over. Did my pscyhiatry exam and now waiting for my oncology to start and exam for oncology in 2 weeks time. I think psychiatry is quite free but I had been away from Belfast for 5 weeks.. so couldn't online and update my blog. Oh wait.. I think I did update one though...

First week: Teaching in Belfast... Nothing much.. except for the pig test...

Second week: Clinical attachment started in one of the psychiatry hospital outside Belfast.. Don't think I am going to tell the name.... My first morning in the hospital.... First time in my life walking down the psychiatry ward corridor. I told myself in my mind, it is just like a usual ward with lots of locks and you need key to get through all the door. Nothing to worry about. At the moment that I thought I am safe in there, one incident did happen on me. This really terrified me... I was shocked and stunned for the whole morning. I don't think I should say what happen, anyway I don't think he mean it, and he couldn't control himself as well.

Third week: Oh gosh.. same guy again... but he didn't do anything to me this time...

Fourth week: A patient questions that I got a sexual problem by shaking my hand. Another patient having "sitting" problem with me. Making me feel miserable during wardround.

Fifth week: Same patient had the same "sitting" problem with me...

Sixth week: Last week, so I didn't travel down to hospital instead I stayed home and prepared for my exam.

Last Thursday, my psychiatry exam officially over. I have 3 days break.

I didn't do much during this long weekend break. After exam, I decided to bake a cake, Nutella cinnamon cake, it turned out fine i think but not great. The reason that I bake a cake is to feed my housemates who are counting calories all the time and I fed them with baked carbonara and the cake to make them fat... haha.... After the cake, I rearranged my "new" room because I don't like the arrangement. Anyway still consider new, I shifted to this house in June. One thing my house is freaking cold.

Then did my bank and phone stuff on Friday which I didn't do during my exam time.

Today I went down to city centre and finally I got myself a winter cap.. Finally, I had been looking for a winter cap for a year and I couldn't find any because all of them make me look like I am allien....

Now, I am wondering what should I do after this post. Should I go to sleep?

By the way, MSSNI agm held on Friday and I had officially step down which I am glad with.. haha... no responsibility.... I bet all other commitees felt the same as me too...

LIFE

2008-09-12T18:17:00.002+01:00

Third week of psychiatry and I have spent 2 weeks in the psychiatric hospital, 3 more weeks to go before I officially finish my psychiatry posting.

See lots of things in psychiatry...

Can't share here... Everything is private and confidential...

But....

Life is amazing and priceless... but isn't worthless....

There are tonnes of people treating their life like SXXT.

Always choose to end their life for some minor reason or for something that not even worth a penny....

Please appreciate your own life and don't intend to end your life at all...

If you choose to commit suicide, the outcome will be either you rescue by somebody and sent to a psychiatric hospital or you did kill yourself. Then you will be lying in the coffin and don't feel anything. But you make you family feel sad and they might get ill which may affect the rest of their life which I had seen tonnes of them during this 2 weeks. (I mean they may get severe depression or psychotic depression even)

So don't end your life because your life doesn't go the way that you want.

Personality Test

2008-08-30T00:09:00.009+01:00

Back in Belfast. Class officially started and I start with psychiatry.
Psychiatry so far I am not sure what's my perception about it.
But first week of lecture, I did make a good look at 500g cannabis, 1kg cocaine, 500g heroin and few pieces of LSD (Lysergic Acid Diethylamide). Due to the cocaine leak out from the bag, my hand got some cocaine... but I wash my hand instead of sniffing it....
Then during lecture, we were told to do a personality test.....

Do you wanna do? Is very easy and it take less than a minute.

Just follow the instruction and remember don't scroll down if you haven't finish drawing. I feel like the test is quite accurate...

First of all, take one piece of paper (when I said one piece of paper I hope you use something like A4 not like really small piece of paper or receipt).

And draw a pig.... You can take your time if you want... but don't take too long...

Done???

Not yet???

Don't be too picky...

This the pig that I drew.... The second one and the first one are the same. And I know that my pig isn't that nice... or maybe doesn't look like a pig at all.. haha...

If the pig is drawn to the top of the paper, you are positive and optimistic. Towards the middle, you are realistic. Towards the bottom, you are pessimistic and have a tendency to behave negatively.
If the pig is facing left, you believe in tradition, are friendly and remember dates (birthdays etc). Facing right, you are innovative and active, but don't have a strong sense of family, nor do you always remember dates.Facing front (looking at you), you are direct, enjoy playing devil's advocate and neither fear nor avoid discussions
With lots of details, you are analytical, cautious and distrustful.With few details, you are emotional and naive, you care little for details and are a risk taker.
With less than 4 legs showing, you are insecure or are living through a period of major change.With 4 legs showing, you are secure, stubborn and stick to your idealsIf you have drawn more than 4 legs, you are stupid.
The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. The bigger the better.
The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life, and once again the longer, the better......

So what do you think now????

Free Loop

2008-08-30T00:04:00.000+01:00

2008-07-08T16:20:00.003+01:00

Finally my third year of my medicine course is over....

I was looking through my blog and I didn't update it since my surgery posting which is 4 months ago.

I just trying to recap what I did for the past 4 months...

2 months of general medicine posting

1 week of study break

2 weeks of exams

2 weeks of result waiting period

2 weeks in Malaysia

So total up is roughly 4 months right?

Let starts with my general medicine posting...

During my posting, I only spent few hours in the hospital and my long day during my posting was Monday and only for 3 weeks because I stayed back for the nights to clerk my case and get my report done after the long day of class then the rest of the weeks I only turned up for hospital teaching which vary from 0 to 4 hours a day. The rest of the time I was studying at home or library. At first I was studying in the library but when other the exam date getting nearer then the libraries were very pack with other students as well and very noisy so at the end I chose to stay in my room and study.The problems that I studied in my room are the noise level and the fire alarm. The highest record was 3 times in a week of fire alarm and it was supposed to be 4 for me but I went to hospital and escaped from one of it. One of the fire alarm occurred at 4am during the weekdays and I was asleep after a long day in hospital and revision. The cause of the fire alarm was some stupid idiot broke the fire alarm glass.. About the noise level, which was pretty interesting a GUY CRIED loudly in his room with tonnes of friends in his room. And not all the people understand why is he crying due to language barrier but I understood. So lets guess which country is this guy from? By the way not Malaysian so have a nice guess... The whole flat knew and heard this guy cried. And I don't think is nice to reveal why he was crying anyway....And same people same geng had a party the night before my exam. My toughest paper among all my papers.. The party started at 12am so basically is the same day not the night before. I couldn't sleep till 3.... Luckily I managed to get through that paper...

After exam, talked about the fun time and half relaxed time that I had....

Shift house... Finally no more halls lifestyle...
A nice and comfortable house... But no internet yet that why I couldn't update my blog after my exam.. so is not my fault.. haha
I didn't really travel anywhere after my exam.. Sorry to everyone that I suddenly pulled out from the Paris trip(post exam trip) before the exam probably due to exam stress and didn't join the Paris and Belgium trip as well... I went over to visit my sister in Liverpool who I managed to meet up only twice a year....

Then here it comes the fully relaxed time because the result is out the day before I flew back to Malaysia. I am so glad that I managed to make it. I had a pleasant flight home with 10 hours of transit time in Heathrow.

Finally I am back home... I am so excited...
Finanly I am home...
Malaysian food...
Weather is warm here but I think I will use to it soon enough...

Thanks to the raise in petrol price...
My airticket went up... So once a year to Malaysia is set for me....
The food price in Malaysia went up as well...

Currently I am in KL but I am going back to Ipoh tomorrow...
Came down 2 days ago to meet up with friends..
Have a great time catching up with them...
By the way, Get Smart is funny...

Jennifer Rafferty 'Did you love me, the way I loved you?'

2008-05-23T21:48:00.001+01:00

General Surgery

2008-03-13T10:38:00.002Z

Finally 6 weeks of surgery posting is over, is my longest ever posting so far but medicine is going to be 7 weeks. During these 6 weeks, times really fly is just like a week just over while u did nothing. My class is only from Monday to Thursday every week from morning 9 to 12.30 or 11.30 except that when you need to get a case and attend to observe the surgery. Today is the last day, only Rebecca and I turned up and the doctors are busy as well. So both of us went home after tea break and just make me feel like... Wake up early in the morning, change to formal clothes, walk to hospital and have a cup of coffee and scone and get home.... haha.... Partly due to I am lazy and don't feel like seeing patient or I am too sleepy for any questioning session during bedside teaching. Honestly I did enjoy my surgery posting, very good teaching in Royal really glad that got my attachment in Royal.

Now my holiday for Easter is officially started, 3 weeks break, think of going back to Malaysia but is like no point due to I need to study and summer is coming soon as well. My brilliant friends in Melbourne suggested that I should go over during 3 weeks of Easter. If I can make it to Australia and don't go home, what would my family think about me and I really need to study during this holiday. My 3rd year final is coming soon as well. I was told that there is a trip to Prague I nearly wanted to go but end up I hold myself back because I need to study as well. So my Easter holiday will be in Belfast, stay put in my house hope to get some work done. No traveling or maybe the furthest I can go now is Dublin or maybe go over to England or Scotland.

I bid something from eBay and I won. Now I am so pissed from the seller, he took 2 weeks to post out the items or maybe 3 weeks I don't know. I bid it last Monday and until now he still didn't send out the item. I like XXX and he just gave me a very unreasonable excuse. OMG how on earth have this kind of people. AXXXXXE.

Suddenly I forgot my own blog address, I type jeng.blogspot.com in my MSN tag then it looks weird to me. Then I have to check my address in the webpage. OMG probably now I am so lack of sleep. Probably I will go back to bed after this post.

I called a friend of mine in Malaysia yesterday because is her birthday and she told me some shock news happened among my friends in my Malaysia med school. I am shocked to hear that but what to do. Maybe this is life... Their life.. or our life... just life...

Lately, I am so sick of my own cooking, is just that everything cook almost the same thing. I am a bad cook and I am very lazy to cook as well. Always use the recipe that just throw everything in meat and vegetables in and cook together. Save time and energy.

Sorry if this post a bit crappy, something bothering me in my mind lately.

March: Happy Birthday Everyone....

2008-03-07T14:41:00.004Z

2nd March: Happy Birthday Lay Ping

5th March: Happy Birthday Phaik Har

7th March: Happy Birthday Jian Wei

9th March: Happy Birthday Shio Yen

13th March: Happy Birthday Keren Lim
Happy Birthday Jay Low

17th March: Happy Birthday Hsiu Yinn

Just Ignore This

2008-02-26T23:58:00.004Z

These few days I feel like blogging but I have nothing to blog about.... But I feel like typing something on this site... haha...

Let see what can I said or what can I update...
(I realized point form always the best when you wanna crap something, nothing to write or too many things to write)

Update:

Easter holiday is coming and is 2 and half weeks away. I have 3 weeks break but amazing that I didn't travel like Christmas Holiday. All this thanks to my final exam I think..
Probably will travel around Belfast and Dublin as well... Not sure yet....
4th week of surgery, probably due to half day all the time in the hospital so I felt like I just started my surgery posting. Compare to my 3 weeks Infectious Disease posting (full day everyday) I feel like I been there almost 1 month after the 1st week. But I enjoy the surgery posting...
I had a hair cut last Friday... My second haircut since I came... ( I can't make the same hairstyle as this... So is a different one now)

Patrick's birthday 2 weeks ago, he got drunk. I was drunk as well....
Chinese New Year officially over last week, out of 15 days I think I had celebration dinner more than half of the whole chinese new year... ( Gain weight...)
The weather is driving me crazy... 2 weeks ago the weather was -5 or -3 degree Celcius, last week 10 degree celcius, this week 5 degree celcius plus strong wind..

Something random:

Shio Yen is ENJOYING herself in Australia with XXXXXX by using her skype phone. So IMU dude don't call her skype even though you can see her online 24/7. She needs to reserve the minutes for XXXXXX. Later she scold you if you skype with her. (NB: I called her last week... Sigh... guess what happen? :P)
Reika is working hard for her first PBL in Melb... And she just kept complaining about her internet...
Jay dye his hair.... (guess what the colour?)
Patrick always behave the same way when he is drunk... smile and laughing all the time
San Fui is pissed by her "protocol" GP... Which at the end, she wasn't treated by the GP at all...
I think I am too bored and just being LXXE so just ignore this post.

Actually I am quite busy this week, so didn't go out and nothing really happen or nothing special to talk about...

2008-02-26T08:23:00.002Z

10 minutes before I need to leave the house for class. I need to be in the hospital by 9 today or everyday. I so wish that I can sleep longer, I am so deprived of sleep now. Every morning I will just off my alarm and set it half an hour later (basically it is my breakfast time), so I will either skip breakfast or have my breakfast in the hospital which is scone and coffee. No matter what, coffee is the most important thing to keep my brain functioning the whole day. Just now I was thinking whether I should skip class since there is only 2 hours class today which will be bedside teaching, but I am not going to do anything either at home so might as well go for it. And now here I am, everything is ready and wait for the time to come. I have no idea what am I typing.. And why am I blogging early in the morning?

2008-02-25T17:56:00.002Z

After all, I am not as cold hearted as I thought before this.

Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T00:21:00.000Z

This year is the first time that I celebrating chinese new year away from home. I still remember last few years when Chinese New Year I got no chinese new year feeling and don't really feel excited about it maybe because I had grown up. This year is different, Chinese New Year bring a different meaning for me. This year Chinese New Year really mean family reunion to me, I miss home, I miss the Chinese New Year situation and atmosphere back home. I miss seeing my family members and having dinner together especially reunion dinner. Then watched the advertisement about Chinese New Year on you tube. I like the Petronas 2008 CNY advertisement.

" BE HOME FOR REUNION DINNER WITH YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS IF YOU CAN"

Yeah I really wish to be home for Chinese New Year. Lots of things when you don't get it then you start to appreciate it and miss it. Wouldn't bother about whether you get ang pao or not.

This year, we had pot luck for reunion dinner and just now we didn't manage to stay up late and chit chat after the dinner because I was quite tired after classes and massive cooking in the kitchen plus tomorrow I have early morning class in the hospital as well. Anyway is fun. Earlier I called home, this year my house only 3 peoples having reunion dinner so not much food that my mom can cook because they can't finish it anyway.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone... Have a good RAT year...

Mua Zhi

2008-02-06T23:47:00.000Z

First day of surgery posting, other than classes and introduction of surgery. I make mua zhi as well. Know what is that?

Finally is done... Everyone is trying... And it is nice.. haha...
It is going to be the desert for MSSNI CNY celebration.....

Middle of the Night

2008-01-25T00:30:00.000Z

Now is half twelve midnight, I should sleep early because tomorrow or technically later I need to wake up at half seven to get to hospital by 9. I just bathed actually so don't feel sleepy yet even though is time to sleep. Earlier I went for Irish Gaelic dance which is fun and nice, I went after dinner. Good experience and get to know more people as well. The dance remind me lots of things that happened in the past...

Middle of the night, technically today will be my last day for my spring SSC. But I am not sure what am I going to do in the ward. Probably clerk few patient, look through their case notes and examine them. Don't think there will be any ward round, but there is teaching session in noon. So no half day for the last day.

Middle of the night, today is the last day for spring SSC, yet my mind didn't think about the SSC. I just surf internet aimlessly and decide to put the post.

Middle of the night, today is the last day for spring SSC, yet my mind didn't think about the SSC. There is lots lots of things came through my mind. All the memories last time even the memories back in Malaysia, my life in Malaysia for the past 20 years, my life few months ago in Belfast. There is lots lots of things in my mind. Lots of memories... Happy or Sad... Sweet or Bitter... Just everything in my mind now. Anyway, life without memory will be a zombie I think, so with memories maybe can motivate you, guide you or make you happy even sad sometime depend how you look at it.... Think back... life had changed... everything had changed.... nothing can stop and rewind back. Something when changed is changed... even though you want to change it back which will be impossible. So good to have changes in life or no changes at all? Positive side, changes can improve yourself or upgrade maybe. Negative side, ???? I don't really know... just lots of things change.... Should stop the changes in life topic here.

Special Post for you..

2008-01-22T23:43:00.000Z

Well this post is for Cubit gal aka Hsu Phie Chong since she is worrying and stress about her exam USMLE. Anyway, your new nick from Belfast. Cubit gal. Haha....

All the best... You will go US so don't worry...

Goodnight Goodnight

2008-01-18T23:58:00.000Z

Student Selected Component aka SSC

2008-01-18T23:36:00.000Z

Currently I am doing Spring SSC, remembered last time I did summer SSC when I just arrived. This proved that I had been here for 1 semester. Lots of things had happened in this 1 semester, I knew lots of new friends but still miss my old friends include "OLD"(age) friend... haha... So fast, times really fly 1 semester is gone and now is halfway through my SSC and next week will be the last week. I did 2 weeks of SSC.

My spring SSC is just like another clinical placement. The subject is INFECTIOUS DISEASE.
My comment is:
- interesting
- busy
- tiring (due to long hour all the time)
- lose weight (too busy.... no break time for the whole day from 9 to 4 so no lunch or tea)

List of diseases:
- Malaria
- Meningitis
- HIV
- Pneumonia
- Quinsy (No idea why not transfer the patient to ENT)
- MRSA
- Clostridium Difficile
- Leptospirosis
- Brucellosis
- Schistosomiasis
- Tapeworm
- Tuberculosis
- Pneumocystic carrini pneumonia
- Cryptococcal infection
- Meningococcal septicaemia (pretty bad... so better don't get this)
- Diarrhoea and vomiting (in a serious way which either the patient going to die soon or have to stay in hospital for long time.., I mean die... is true..... I had seen it...)

Really is fun and learned alot... but I am glad that weekend is coming as well..

Anyway, yup there goes 1 semester, left Malaysia for 1 semester. How's my friends who are back in Malaysia? How's my friend who are leaving to Australia, US and New Zealand soon....

Random Post

2008-01-07T22:11:00.000Z

Early morning, mobile alarm went off, I can't remember it was which mobile, my hand left my blanket to get the mobile with my eye close. Suddenly I got confuse with the alarm tone from both mobiles. So just grab both mobiles and feel the vibration, finally I knew is which one. But I pressed all the key on my mobile keypad... But I can't off the alarm, so the best way is leave it on the bed and let it be..Few minutes later, second mobile alarm went off, same thing happened again.... Same thing happen all over again.... Both mobiles are same brand.. so you should know why... Moral of the story... ignore the mobile alarm and let it rang, let the snooze do the rest of the job to wake you up....

Snowing in Belfast

2008-01-04T10:22:00.000Z

It started when there is light snowing in Belfast and it stopped after that for half an hour then suddenly is heavy snowing in Belfast....

Lots of people came out from the house and play....

Snowfight.....(which is tiring and glove is needed if not will get frost bite)
p/s: no picture for snowfight because everyone is busy throwing and revenge...

Snowman (fun to roll a small snow ball... but hard to push when it got bigger and bigger)

p/s: please excuse my weird facial expression because the snow was really heavy and I can't see clearly

The snowing going on until early morning, when I slept at 2am and the snow was still heavy...
This is how it look like outside my window......
Notice the snowman over there? I saw the whole process of making it from my window....

Back In Belfast

2008-01-02T22:27:00.000Z

Back in Belfast....

Friendly bus driver that greet everyone...

Have a wee chat as well....

Nice people....

I miss Barcelona weather....

Warm, Sun light and Dry.....

Happy New Year

2008-01-01T12:31:00.001Z

At the last second of 2007, I spent it at Manchester National Express Coach Station, that time we just had our new year eve dinner then we sent Janet off to London which she is going back to Calgary today. Now is 1st January 2008....

New Year Resolution?

So far I didn't think of any..

Maybe I will think about it during the 1 hour train trip from Manchester to Liverpool..

But first of all, one of my best friend Kailyn Soo's new year resolution is " I don't wanna be so blur anymore... I must change... "

One more thing...

One of my friend asked me one question...

If you are going to die tomorrow and before you die, you are only allowed to meet one person and that person don't know that you are dying. So who will you choose to see? Only one person allow...

I am shocked that my friend asked me this question because she isn't that type of person that will think about all this thing. So I am thinking maybe something happen to her... And my answer for this question is..... private and confidential..... Hope my friend who asked this question is fine as well.

This will be my last post in Manchester....

Manchester

2007-12-30T17:57:00.000Z

Here it goes half of my holiday is gone, currently I am in Manchester, my friend's place, due to UK's shops closed at 6 or 5 so I got no where to go and can't do any shopping until tomorrow. 5 days of Barcelona trip was fun but quite tiring, and now I start to miss my bed in Belfast even though I am having fun here. Just a short post from Manchester.

Christmas in Hospital

2007-12-21T20:43:00.000Z

Christmas is next week.... These are what you will hear in the hospital:

Patient

I had been here for quite long.... So doctor how am I doing and how's my blood result? Can I go home before Christmas?
Can I go home for Christmas and come back after that?
Can I just go home for Christmas?

Doctor

How's that patient doing? Let him go home today... He seem fine... Go home for Christmas.
So have all the radioactive barium came out? Just try to flush it out during the weekend and let him home before Christmas..
Monitor that patient and let him home for Christmas dinner...
So nice to be medical student... got holiday for Christmas...
I am on call on Christmas eve and duty on Christmas....
I got no off for Christmas...

Nurse:

Merry Christmas... No off.... Need to work...

Medical Student:

Yes... last day of posting... Christmas holiday officially started...

Packing

2007-12-16T19:42:00.000Z

Now I am packing in my room. But I am not packing for trip, not packing to go home, I am packing to go Craigavon for hospital posting. Sigh... Everyone's holiday had started. Anyhow I supposed to be in Craigavon now but this morning I woke up late and I decided to wake up early morning tomorrow and travel down to Craigavon instead. Hope that after all the travelling and early morning wake up I would still be able to talk to the patient and go for classes. Haha. I just feel lazy to go down today. Anyhow yeah the last week of classes before Christmas holiday I wouldn't be in Belfast and I can't online for this week as well. Back to last time when I had 3 continuous week outside Belfast without internet connection plus all the hassle and tiredness on travelling. Actually now I did have some phobia on peripheral hospital posting. Haha. I think I exaggerated it. Anyhow this week can consider as the last week I had peripheral hospital except for Ulster Hospital posting after Christmas which I would need to take bus daily to travel up and down. Anyhow... Hope I enjoyed my Haematology posting... "Bloody" posting...

Random

2007-12-15T11:23:00.001Z

Last Saturday I went down to St Georges Christmas Market. While I was walking then I stopped by a stall because a guy asked us want to get anything he can give us a cheaper price. And he promote his air gun to us and said that can bargain the price no worry. Haha... The price is cheap but I wouldn't use it here anyway. Then I saw this thing. He said can use to hang on the Christmas Tree. But I don't know why I just bought it. Realize it is quite special even though I don't have Christmas tree to hang... So my friend... do you want it? No matter where you are... I don't mind post it to you... Just drop me a message.... Anyway... Merry Christmas everyone...

Meaning

2007-12-13T22:38:00.001Z

A song that I heard last time from a movie and I remembered it until now...

Musgrave Park Hospital

2007-12-13T14:36:00.000Z

Musgrave Park Hospital is located in Belfast and down the Lisburn Road, take 40 minutes to walk from Fitzwilliam Street and take bus number 9 A B and C to get here... Further details please go online and google it :p

Now I am at Musgrave Park Hospital and blogging... Counting down 25 minutes for next class after the case presentation and now the all of us are wondering whether we should go for the next class which is case discussion but we are not sure because probably they will be only 6 of us out of 27 peoples are coming for the discussion. So...

Probably I will go since I wouldn't do any work when I reached home.. Tomorrow I have clinic early in the morning but the rest of the people got a day off and is their last day of musculoskeletal posting. Some other university are starting their holiday next week and some even started since last week. My university, all other students are having 3 weeks holiday which is starting next week but except 3rd and 4th year medical student. We only have 2 weeks. I am so in holiday mood now but next week I am going down to Craigavon for a week for Haematology posting and I need to get my report done for Haematology during the posting so that I can enjoy my Christmas holiday and don't have to travel back there just to hand in the report.. Gosh I am so in holiday mood and how can I get my report done. Anyway I have to do it..

Now I am just waiting for time pass to get my case discussion class done and get home. Now David said that Bye guys.. I am not going for case discussion and going home now.. And said that probably wouldn't see you guys anymore till next year June exam.. So bye.... this is because we had different timetable for the rest of the posting. Anyway I have to come in tomorrow morning for the clinic....

Christmas is coming soon. Everyone is busy with Christmas shopping... Some are even busy decorating the Christmas tree... Can't wait for Christmas to come... I have started to plan the journey to Liverpool, Barcelona and Manchester... 2 weeks holiday even though is not long enough, I wil still fully utilize it..

Hsu Phie Chong, Shio Yen Tio, Pulvesh Punj and Jenny Chong.. I think next month is USMLE rite.... Good luck.... Take Care.... Enjoy the exam...

3.15am

2007-12-08T03:15:00.000Z

Now is 3.15am in Belfast, Malaysia time 11.15 am, and definitely I am in Belfast instead of Malaysia. Actually I seldom stay up until so late ever since I came here. I think the last time I stayed up till so late was last month or 2 months ago, that time I went to a friend house and have a drink. But this time I stayed up so late because I don't feel like sleeping and have to deal with my report as well since I am not sleepy yet. So fast another week goes off. Countdown 2 more weeks to Christmas. And now all of us are like starting to plan for the trip and like how much Euro should we change and stuff. But still I have to wake up early during weekdays and go to hospital. Sigh....

This Friday is amazing because it is really quiet outside.

- No one singing outside.
- No one talking very loud outside.
- No one throw their glass bottle on the floor.
- No one partying outside.
- No one walk pass as well.
- No one shouting for no reason.
- No one stand outside your window and say hi to you or show some SIGN to you if you didn't
close your curtain (happen sometime)
Provided all these happen from the drunk people. But tonight should be drinking night so it should be noisy according to my experience. But today is like so quiet and peace. Not only outside, even the person who is staying above me, he didn't walk like an elephant, sing, shouting and playing mahjong with his friend.

Lately is really warm but raining all the time and everyday, so get wet all the time and have to dry myself up in the hospital toilet.

Hsu Phie Chong.... haha... don't worry I didn't forget about you... So how are you? How's studies and preparation for USMLE? Study hard for it..... and enjoy the study process as well because you are studying with Puvesh....

Rest In Peace.

2007-12-02T20:25:00.001Z

I received an email from my mom 3 days ago. She said my one of my uncle passed away. I was quite shocked. But he was suffered from cancer when he was alived and it wasn't under control and metastases to the multiorgans. Sad to say that he left us. Hope he rest in peace. At least he is off from all the suffer and torture from cancer.

Holiday holiday...... Coming soon.....

2007-12-01T17:27:00.000Z

3 more weeks to go and Christmas is going to be here. I wish that the holiday can come faster so that I can travel for my holiday and sad to say that I can't go home for this Christmas break even though I wish to. NO MONEY and HOLIDAY TOO SHORT. So instead of going back I am going to Barcelona and stop by at Liverpool and Manchester. I am kind of craving for holiday now since my 1 week of holiday is at the first week of entire hospital attachment which I got a break even before I start work. haha. This week I am doing Musculoskeletal this week at Musgrave Park Hospital but glad that I didn't get Altnagevin for this posting because I really don't wish to travel down to peripheral hospital for so long but then I need to go down to Craigavon the week before Christmas. This week I had a hectic week and I had a day off on Friday as well. And I never feel glad that I had a day off on Friday so far until this week, I guess I am really tired of waking up early and getting home late and spend 70 percent of the time in the hospital. From Monday to Thursday I had been left home at 8 am and reached home at 6 or 7pm. Everytime I came back I felt so exhausted, then I am thinking this like how it is going to be during houseman haha. So bare with it. Frankly I did enjoy this week of Musculoskeletal mainly on Rheumatology. And the orthopaedic surgery with a staff male nurse dancing in the operation theathe in the middle of the operation. haha.

Rei Ka Lim thanks for the Christmas card. I really like it and it is really nice. This proved that you are very free during your holiday so that you can make this card yourself haha.

And for Kathleen hope you get well soon. You with your swollen cheeks which I find it hard to imagine and I really wish to see how you look like now.. haha. :p Hope you can get well before you Hong Kong Trip.

Shio Yen.. Don't be so picky and study hard to USMLE but in the mean time don't be so picky and go out with people and have fun :p

2007 - 1986 = 21

2007-11-17T12:29:00.000Z

Finally I get to 21 even though I might look older than that. But after my 21st birthday I am officially 21 so I have to right to get alcohol in the shop, enter the bar and the right to vote as well. Actually I don't feel any difference from being 21 though. haha. No quarter life crisis as well, won't feel fear on turning into adult. Basically I am 21.

Thanks for the surprise and birthday dinner as well. Let me make it brief with the photos.

First of all meet outside Guthrie House and Jay took a picture while I just came out without knowing so please excuse my weird facial expression..

Then I got blind fold and have to make 21 turns in front of Guthrie House before I can start walking to the restaurant which I didn't know where is it that time. Then all I can heard is turn left, right, slowly, faster, stop, small step in front and laughing sounds from all the way. Finally I had reached the restaurant. And then definitely I heard Yee Pei was laughing very loud and this will be the prove...

Can see the yee pei at the back there laughing like mad.... :P
Haha finally I got to sit down and they open my eye and I saw this...

Yeah this is Villa Italia which is only 5 minutes walked from my place but I took me a long time to reach there... Finally I met everyone in the restaurant. Everyone chit chatting and eating. After the dinner, suddenly the waitress brought in a cake...

Nice right the cake and the cake is baked by them. Thank you so much guys..

Alicia was trying to show her cake cutting skill... but she did a great job.. haha...

All these 3 photos are the peoples who came for the dinner. Really thank you for coming that day. And special thanks Jay, Jia Li, Patrick and Phaik Har ( 2 J and 2 P) for the cake and the birthday celebration. Really enjoyed my birthday.

And for sure I don't forget all my friends from Malaysia who are now from all over the place and only part of them are still in Malaysia. Thanks for all the birthday wishes through SMS, cards, msn, facebook, friendster and calls. Thank you. And most of the wishes will come with the sentence of don't get too drunk. haha.. I think maybe due to 21st birthday but I didn't drink on my 21sth birthday so I didn't get drunk haha.

"Nice" weather

2007-11-12T22:36:00.000Z

This morning I offed 2 alarms that I set in both of my handphone but I really have to wake up at the end. And I am running late so I just make everything quick and had a bar of chocolate for breakfast. Then I just rushed out and walked to Royal Victoria Hospital. Within 15 minutes time, my class of first day of Neuroscience in the ward is going to start. When I reached Belfast City Hospital, the bus just went off in front of me. I still can see the bus at the end of the road, just late by few minutes and I have to walk to Royal Victoria Hospital. Actually I don't mind walking, it is not very far but the weather really turn me down when I want to walk. Is freezing outside and the wind really make you put more effort and use double of your energy to walk (if it is blowing against your walking direction). It make you cross the road diagonally. The strong and cold wind really make you awake if you choose to walk in the morning. When I came back, my friend told me this morning outside is only 1 degree celcius. I like what!!!!! I don't usually checked current temperature I only checked the range of temperature in weather forecast in my yahoo mail when I checked my email every morning. I can't believe that I am walking in 1 degree celcius. Really freezing while you walking and thanks to the strong wind which make you feel even "better". Now is only Autumn... Winter????? No idea...

2007-11-12T20:43:00.001Z

Another week had passed, time really fly and I meant it. Last week I didn't really do much and nowadays really have a mood swing or something else. The mood really fluctuate, up and down but most of the time is down, but I am not so sure whether it is down or not. Is just the feeling that I can't describe with words. I really hope that I can get ride of that, but whenever I tried to do something seriously it came to my mind again and ended up nothing happen. Something happened had happened, is over but always there is memories left in the mind and permanently inside which can't erase or forget even though you wish and you try your best. Usually other people said time is the factor for all these so just try to ignore it. I will say, say is easier than done. Yup and last week nothing happening came up. Did some shopping at most. Weather is getting cold and is freezing. Now I will go out with my coat, scarf and glove. Without the scarf really make a big difference. Last Friday I went out for night walk and at the end came back my face was numb and can't really open my mouth freely. Oh yup something interesting happened, I did something or I should said I tried something. Something that my family encouraged me but they didn't force me to try it. Last time there is a girl who want me to try it. She really want me to try it and she did her best to get me to try it. But at the end she can't make it as well. So after that I will think I wouldn't try it in the future as well. Seriously that time I felt sorry to her that I really can't try it. Today suddenly I feel like trying it and I just tried it. Yeah I did and it doesn't like as bad as I thought but then I think I still need time to get use to it. By the way, the thing that I had tried is one type of food so don't simply think haha. I am shocked that I had tried it. Haha... Maybe I should said congratulation to myself instead haha. Thanks for all the people who tried their best to make me try it last time. haha... Happening news in my life. I didn't know since when I don't like that thing and I never taste that thing before. But today I really tasted it. Really I tasted it twice as well. Haha.....

2007-11-04T17:50:00.000Z

I took this in the bus from Derry to Omagh

2007-11-04T16:51:00.000Z

2 weeks didn't post anything on this blog. Now is like so many things happened and I have no idea where to start. Maybe point form is easier.... or a time line.....

21nd - 28th November:

Traveled down to Omagh on Sunday evening because there is only few buses going down to Omagh on Sunday. After the 2 hours bus journey, I arrived the town which was quite empty and the public bus transport is off for Sunday. So cab was my only option.
Checked in the hostel at 10pm because due to some security policy I think but anyway just watched tv at some patient's family waiting room in the hospital.
Started my first week of ENT got a very pack schedule and timetable. But is good at least I learned something.
First time wearing the head mirror which I never see before in my life except in some old cartoon which the doctor was wearing the head mirror to reflect the light.
First time I learned how to use a nose speculum which is not so easy to control after all (I didn't injure the patient while I examined him even though he was quite scared and he is my age)
Tuesday travel from Omagh back to Derry for Clinical Pathology Conference aka class which summarize the whole system with few cases. Took 1 hour to drive down thanks to Brian he was giving us a ride. Took 1 and half hour to take bus back to Omagh. I only spent 45 minutes in the class. haha....
Went to theatre, observed few tonsillectomy, myringotomy vent insertion surgery, adenoidectomy, FESS and septoplasty.
Saw a lot of small kids have to go for surgery. Even baby as well. Poor them
Saw a nasal tumour which is 12 cm in length in the nose. Was very obvious cause some of it came out.
Came back to Belfast on Friday.
Big trouble for me all because of thanks to 3 due to their service was really bad. I did call them up, ask for explanation and hopefully I can get some solution but all they did was nothing until I insist to solve the problem that night and they transfered my call here and there and I had to repeat my problem again and again. And finally volcano was activated. All the blasting came out and caused my blood pressure rise and I got a very bad headache the whole night. I had been very patient and deal with the problem that they gave me for 3 weeks. The answer was the same. I can't be patient anymore. Since the first day I received my phone the problem was there. I only got the phone for 1 month basically. So if someone ask me is 3 good. I think you can predict the answer.
Saturday did some shopping for MSSNI for Hari Raya Celebration and prepared for it as well.
Saturday night time to change the clock, earned another hour, which was good for me because I was very busy during that time. I saw the time changed as well, computer and handphone automatically changed.
Sunday Hari Raya Celebration by MSSNI in the afternoon
Rushed back home to get my luggage and head straight to bus station to catch the bus back to Omagh.

29th October - 2nd November

Usual ENT routine lecture, clinic and theate.
After lunch effect, nearly fell asleep in the lecture who only had 4 of us plus the doctor. haha. Don't worry he is nice and I didn't get into trouble.
Wednesday was halloween, I didn't travel back to Belfast for halloween celebration, so my halloween night was in the room watching some show with my laptop and did my report.
Friday Kathleen's birthday. Happy birthday Kathleen.
Friday amazing that I got half day so came home early.
Went out for dinner at 10pm thanks to MSSNI meeting and I was starving. haha
Saturday did some shopping in the city and went to Nik's house for Raya Open House.
Sunday aka today, I felt quite free and relax and no rush. Probably because I don't have to pack my stuff, do my laundry and iron all the clothes and rush to bus station. haha
At the end I did enjoy my weekend.

Drinking in Irish Mind

2007-10-21T11:50:00.000+01:00

"When we drink, we get drunk
When we get drunk, we fall asleep
When we fall asleep, we commit no sin
When we commit no sin, we go to heaven,
So, LET'S ALL GET DRUNK AND GO TO HEAVEN"

I saw this in one of the bar in Derry... So what do you think?

Londonderry and Omagh

2007-10-19T20:56:00.000+01:00

This week I got posted to Altnagevin Hospital which is located at Derry for my second week of Opthalmology posting. On Monday I got my timetable for the whole week as well. I arrived at Altnagevin Hospital on Sunday and went to Tesco to get all the frozen food for my meals for a week. Monday morning I observed 5 cataract surgery which is interesting and answer a lot of question in my mind that I had about cataract surgery last time. Noon I got posted to Optometry clinic. On Monday when I received my timetable, I realized that I have to go Tyroon County Hospital, Omagh, for whole day of eye clinic and I am free on Friday. So I need to call up the hospital to request that I can get my hostel ready earlier because I am going there for ENT posting for next 2 weeks as well. Weather turning cold, really freezing cold, I am not sure about Belfast because today is quite warm and in Derry is cold and rain the whole day as well. Wednesday after my halfday of clinic I took bus to the city centre of Derry to get a bus to Omagh which will be 1 hour and 20 minutes away. So since I arrived early. So I walked around the city and had my lunch there as well. The city is small but very nice and give me a feeling of very historical, the road, the structure and everything. Is totally different from Belfast and the food is 20 percent cheaper than Belfast as well. So I went to a bar alone to have lunch but I didn't drink any beer or alcohol. Because everyone will be going different place for clinic so I was travelling alone. After that I went to shop around but there is nothing for me to buy. Finally I got on the bus to Omagh, sitting down there and wondering how long will it take to arrive, a 70 years old lady from London sitting next to me, she had been staying at Strabane for quite some time. She offered me chocolate as well, there goes over conversation start, she is very friendly and even showed me the border between UK and Republic of Ireland as well. We just chat through the journey. Finally I reached Omagh and there is no one at the bus centre so I am sort of like shocked and asked the bus centre reception for direction to the hospital. I had reached the hospital smoothly without any problems and then I got to move into on call room since my hostel is not ready until Sunday, so I got to stay there and the building is quite old and the whole 3 floors building only got 2 persons staying which including myself. I think another person is working there. The next day I had one whole day of clinic, and I met very friendly doctors, consultants, opthodists and nurses. I think my name is quite hard to remember and pronounce for them. I introduced myself as Jeng and everyone will be like pronouncing the other name. Like my consultant that day, he just can't remember my name the whole day, whenever he wanted to introduce me to the patient, he will just can't remember my name, ended up Jack, Jay, Jen, Jane and Jolie came out. Really funny. I have no idea why girls name appear as well. So I have to keep introduce my own name the whole morning, but in the afternoon session finally he remembered my name, and he is like oh thank god finally he can remember my name but anyway I am only at the eye clinic for one day. I did learn a lot at the clinic so make my extra 11 pounds of bus fare worth it. Yesterday after clinic I took bus back, I seriously doesn't enjoy the bus trip at all. The bus was going slow and it stopped at every single small town so really take a long time to reach home. By the way the difference between bus riding at Malaysia and Northern Ireland is you can see all the oil palm estate in Malaysia and all the farms in Northern Ireland. Last night when I took the bus back, I saw the sunset, seriously look the same in Malaysia, and make me feel like I am in the bus back from Kuala Lumpur to Ipoh and actually I am in Belfast not home. But is heading back to my second home which is Guthrie House. I miss home actually and I miss Malaysia food as well. Haha.

2007-10-13T16:32:00.000+01:00

This is the clock that on my table and now this is the time now. I am just staring at the clock for some time and then get back to my laptop and aimlessly surfing the internet. This morning I woke up quite late and then we had gathering lunch at my place with my friends from Malaysia. We ate Bak Kut Teh today and Wantan as well. Now I am very full. Just wondering what should I do. I feel quite tired but I don't feel like getting a nap. Any plan for tonight? So far I think I can say no. Tomorrow I will have to take the noon bus and heading to Londonderry.

2007-10-13T03:00:00.000+01:00

Tonight I have no idea what happen to me... Oh gosh I have no idea what happen to me.. I am feeling very weird and not happy or anything or just that I can't describe it. Maybe I know what make me become like that or maybe not.. I have no idea...

First Time

2007-10-13T02:42:00.000+01:00

I have no idea what happen or what that Belfast did to me... I came for 2 months and I had baked 2 cakes in my life because this weeks is Jia Li's and Chris's birthday. The picture below, the chocolate cake for Jia Li and the second ice cream cake is for Chris. These are the first 2 cakes that I made in my life but of course I came here to study medicine but not bakery so I made it from the chocolate cake powder or is brownies powder due to some companies in Belfast are on strike so I can't get any cake powder mixture in Belfast city and I only got the brownies powder mixtures. Now I am very sick of baking cake because I had been doing it 2 days in a role. So no way... At least for future few months. I am quite tired just came back from Chris's surprise birthday party and we ran there with the ice cream cake because we scared that the ice cream will melt. And I drank a bit of bailley's. I have no idea whether I like it or not. Maybe not because sometime it make me feel like one cup is enough and I am not going to ask for second cup unlike whisky or beer. So does this mean that I don't like it. But sometime I did feel that it is nice though. Tomorrow I need to travel to Altnagevin and stay there for a week for my hospital attachment, so there goes my life without internet at night at the hospital hostel. After next week I will only come back for the weekend and I got to travel to Ommagh and hospital posting for 2 weeks at Tyroon county hospital. So I wouldn't be in Belfast for 3 weeks. I have no idea how's the Tyroon County hospital will be and what's there because so far all the peoples that I know they never been there before. Anyway hope that I will enjoy it. Enjoy the bus trip as well. Now sitting in front of my laptop looking at my blog... I am wondering what should I write in my blog? I don't know.. Now is nearly 3 am.. I don't know why I don't feel like going to bed... I Just don't feel like the night ending so fast... Anyway..... Good Night everyone...

2007-10-13T02:41:00.000+01:00

The cake that I baked the day before yesterday

The cake that I baked yesterday...

After the some chocolate add on the cake....

2007-10-12T01:51:00.000+01:00

My chicken bow tie pasta

Baby Pork Ribs

Everyone in Jia Li's birthday. Time to introduce people in Belfast. From left to right: Chris, Jia Li, Patrick, Shie Ling, Chia Ling, Phaik Har, Tyng Hwey, Yee Pei, Ben, Jay.

2007-10-12T01:39:00.000+01:00

What do you think about them?

2007-10-12T01:38:00.000+01:00

Phaik Har, Tyng Hwey and Me

As I promise

2007-10-12T01:25:00.000+01:00

As I promise to everyone tonight and PHAIK HAR.... We didn't lie. For all the people who know PHAIK HAR so what do you all think about her? Mmmmm.... All of us (Jia Li, Patrick, Jay and I) said that Phaik Har looks young.... So here's my promise.....

Opthalmology

2007-10-10T22:10:00.000+01:00

I am currently doing opthalmology at Royal Hospital and on the first day we learn how to use Opthalmoscope (some device with the lens and light to look in to the eye). Back in IMU it is so hard for me to see because we didn't use pupil dilator solution. That day all of us need to put that solution on one eye and use the normal eye to see the partner's eye. The pupil really dilate until very big and you can easily see the optic disc and macula. But the side effect is the pupil is fully dilate and is very painful for the eye to look at the light. All the lights will be too bright and you can't read with that eye. So I need to survive with my right eye which I didn't put anything on it. Seriously all I can say is hard. Imagine sometime we will think that someone got accident or trauma that cause one side of the eye become blind and only one eye that you can depend on. So someone might think no big deal because that person still have 1 eye left. But few hours of survival with one eye seriously torturing myself. Hard to pick up something because you can't estimate the distance of the object that you are going to reach. You might feel dizzy because you are not use to it. Therefore, must protect your eye and is not nice and not easy to survive without your eye functioning.

2007-10-10T21:43:00.000+01:00

Last Week

Last week was my first week of posting in year 3 in Belfast city. Last week was Nephrology aka Kidney. Basically is fun and informative and well organized compare to the comment that I got from my friends who started with other block. But for me is quite rush through out the whole week and I wasn't free last week as well. Everyday morning I need to report myself at Belfast city hospital and went to seminar room for case discussion and clerk patient in the noon but nephrology patient need to go for dialysis 3 times a week so have to run around the hospital to track the patient's location so after all is not as easy as I thought at the first place. But the doctors and nurses in the ward are very nice and friendly and helpful. The time seriously fly last week. Monday to Friday by just blinking your eye. Weekend I basically did nothing and nothing special that I can recall except Saturday night we went to Kevin's house which is near Royal Victoria Hospital for nasi lemak which million thanks to Yee Pei who cooked the nasi lemak for all of us. For all the friends who are going Australia you will definitely have the same craving as me for malaysian food when you reach there haha. Friday night was Malaysian Student Society of Northern Ireland Annual General Meeting and after the meeting we had a chat till late night. By the way something did came to my mind now, Sunday night while I was doing my report and suddenly my table lamp the base broken and my whole lamp fell on the table and I have to clean up the mess on my table due to the light bulb is broken and I only got the lamp for 2 weeks. So I had to dig my cupboard to look for the receipt and finally I found it. The next day, Monday, during the 1 and half hour of lunch break I came back from Royal Hospital which is 15 mins walk from my house and I took the spoiled lamp to the city to change it. Luckily the lady is nice and she just let me change the lamp but I changed to different model which is not so bright but I don't mind. Royal Mail on strike seriously does affect me because it delay the arrival of my new phones and I went to city which is the other side of the city where I never been before to collect my parcel since they left the note at my door early morning. Maybe I was sleeping or having my breakfast. Anyway now I got my phone and new line so I can use my phone like a normal student. Yesterday whole bunch of Malaysian went to Tony Roma for dinner to celebrate Jia Li's early birthday due to the birthday girl is busy on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday too bad is our turn to be busy because of MSSNI committee meeting. So we got no choice but bring the birthday celebration earlier from end of the week to the beginning.

HAVE YOU EVER BATHE ICY COLD WATER AT THE WEATHER OF 10 DEGREE CELCIUS?

I did. And I would say is dancing in the shower cubicle. First of all I want to explain that I am not mad or stress or anything that make me to do that. I was force to do that. I just started to bathe and suddenly there is not hot water at all. So I got no choice but have to bathe in icy cold water which make you shiver after you came out. Half of the residents in this hall tried it as well. Luckily today there is hot water at the late evening. If not I will be dancing again in Guthrie House. haha...

Is Time

2007-09-27T14:06:00.000+01:00

Is time to get a new life.
Is time to plan for it.
Is time to change.
Is time to forget.
Is time to let go.
Is time to get use to a new environment.
Is time to accept.
Is time to stand up.
Is time to face it.
Is time....

Is time that holiday end soon.....

Lantern Festival

2007-09-26T10:29:00.000+01:00

This year is the first year that I didn't celebrate Lantern Festival in my home country, for the past 3 years I celebrated my Lantern Festival in KL and before that was in Ipoh with my family. This time is the first time I celebrate Lantern Festival in Belfast. There is mooncake here, you can get it from the chinese supermarket, they sell one box of mooncake for 18 pounds. There is no lantern and candle here, not that I know. Yesterday after dinner, Jay, Jia Li, Patrick and I went up to flat 4 to join the lantern festival night and special thanks to our host, Phaik Har, who sponsored the mooncakes and teas (for your information is real chinese tea not some ang moh tea aka beer). Yup this year, we celebrated with the Malaysian in this hall, Taiwanese and Chinese. 3 groups of people from 3 different country celebrate together. Ended up playing Mafia game for the whole night, and some even sang a song and dance in the common room as well. Yeah this is what happened for the festival night, no lantern and candle. Even we have but don't think we can get a place to play. Outside there is strong wind and cold weather which will either cause you freeze to death or blow off the candle's fire. If play inside the hall, then I would say the whole hall resident will need to wait outside the building again, fire alarm will be activated. Anyway, this year the celebration is with different group of people and different place but it is still fun and nice. Happy Lantern Festival to all my friends.

Fire Alarm

2007-09-26T10:20:00.000+01:00

Well this week I am having one week break which I had mentioned before, "Self Directed Learning" aka "Private Study Time" aka HOLIDAY. So just hang around in the city and shop around. Get myself a pair of shoe again. Then get some other things as well. Yesterday I stayed at home and suddenly the fire alarm was activated. So I have to leave my computer with my pyjamas, one jumper and wearing slippers to leave the building to "save my own life". Outside is like 8 degree celcius and all the people in the hall need to leave the building "immediately" according to the fire action guide. So I went out the building and saw a group of people waiting outside as well. Everyone looked calm, so I don't there is any real fire. Then slowly you can see more people coming out, so even well dressed with formal shirt and the tie on as well (sorry to mention that) and just slumber walking out of the building, so luckily there is no fire if not GOD KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN. We waited outside for 5 minutes, a technician was running towards here. I was thinking that should be a fire fighter who run over here rite? He went into the building and check the alarm system machine. So.... The machine is fine and working in efficiency. He asked for the key for one particular room and went in and had a look. Then he came out and told us what happen. Guess what. A resident here was using some aerosol room odour removal in the room. So happen and I have no idea why the aerosol will reach the smoke detector which is located at the ceiling. Then.... (I don't think I need to mention anymore) 30 minutes of strong wind and cold weather with my pyjamas and a very thin jumper plus slipper.

Giant Causeway Trip

2007-09-26T10:17:00.000+01:00

The Organ

The strong wind seriously blowing me off..

2007-09-26T10:12:00.000+01:00

2007-09-26T10:10:00.000+01:00

They are just looking for something :p

2007-09-26T10:08:00.000+01:00

Giant Causeway

2007-09-26T10:06:00.000+01:00

The 3rd Year Malaysian Medical Student

End of One Module

2007-09-22T08:47:00.000+01:00

After one week of hard work to dig the info in the library and internet, scratched my head thousand times. Finally I finished my assignment which is 2500 words, don't misunderstand that I am a last minute guy, I only got my assignment on Monday. Then I handed it in on Friday morning, and so my student selected component: Creaking Hinges is officially over. Now is just waiting for the result. Next week, everyone will start hospital attachment except me, I have one week of "Self Directed Learning" which as the name explained it, I should study for that week. I have no idea why I get one week of holiday before my hospital start. So everyone, lets bet what am I going to do for that week. Haha. So at night, all of us went out for dinner at Springsteens which is located at Botanic Avenue(this is for the Belfast dude reference), somewhere near my university and my hostel(for all my friends reference). I ordered a pasta, called capone, something like carbonara. Very cheesy and creamy which I love it. The portion is very big as well, so I think I need to exercise more this week to pay back what I had done to my body. After dinner, Chris, Tying Hwei and Yoong dropped by our place, so ended up watching tv, playing Mafia game the whole night till midnight and everyone went back. Tomorrow I need to wake up at 7 to join a day trip to Giant Causeway, so I think I really need to sleep more. Anyway, very happy that student selected component is over and a lot of people asked me what do you think about it. In my opinion, SSC is not bad especially for me and my topic because I had a chance to do dissection which I never try before and scrub up for surgery which I will do it later but just a pre-exposure. For all the friends who are waiting to go Australia and New Zealand, enjoy your six months holiday before it just fly away in one blink.

2007-09-18T01:35:00.001+01:00

2007-09-18T01:33:00.001+01:00

First Time scrubbing up

2007-09-18T01:24:00.000+01:00

This morning in university, suddenly I got a notice that I need to go hospital in the afternoon to observe a surgery. So I got no choice but I have to come back and changed to formal and go hospital. Then scrub up enter the operation theater and put on everything on include the mask with plastic eye protector and the double layer of glove. Is my first time doing it, so is a wee bit slow and looked bit lost as well. But luckily, the friendly male nurse assisted us from the side. Then we stood a side and observe the arthroplasty surgery to be done on a patient who had oestoarthritis on his/her hip joint. The surgery is quite fast, it only took roughly 30 minutes or more to put up a ceramic femur head and acetabulum as well. So hope the patient is able to walk properly in the future. Anyway is my first time in the OT, and first time observe a operation that close and able to walk next to the patient and checked out the hip joint. Here is the photo before I change to scrub and after. I didn't take any photo after I scrub up because I can't touch anything after I scrub up, which include my mask as well. I took it off before I leave the OT.

2007-09-18T01:22:00.001+01:00

A nite on Friday and morning on Saturday

2007-09-16T01:16:00.000+01:00

Last night, Queen's organized a international orientation dinner for all the international student, so I attended with my friend as well. Mmm it started off with reception which is wine section, obviously most of the people are drinking wine and you can even see someone faces turn red maybe due to alcohol effects and then the dinner had started. The food not bad, and we get to know some other friend from other country as well. Especially the part when said go around and said hi to everyone. So basically is a nice dinner. Saturday morning, finally we decide to go St George's Market which only open on Friday and Saturday. Seriously is a very nice place. And I saw a gingermen bread. At then Jia Li bought it she can't even finish it. Then you can try a lot of food there, all the sausages, cake, cheese and marinated stuff as well. Is so different from Malaysia Market. Well that what I did during the weekend.

Bad Day

2007-09-12T23:47:00.000+01:00

Last night I got a letter from the management office, they said that my new room at Guthrie House is ready which is like 15 or 20 minutes walk from the place where I used to stay which is Elm's Village, so I need to move out as soon as possible. So last night, my friends and I we rent a cab and move everything here and went back to Elm's to sleep for one night. This morning we officially moved into Guthrie House. Basically here is not bad, the room is bigger and more comfortable as well. Okay please note that these are the only good points and things happened since last night till tonight. Last night after I moved in my bag in the dark due to my corridor's lights are not on and there is not switch for it. When I went into my room, my room light not working as well. Then I tried to on the water in my room, the cold water tap is malfunction, and my room has some really funny smell that is still present in my room which really irritate me. Last night when I went back to Elm's Management office, I wrote in a complain form for my new room and hope that today they will fix all for me before I come back from university. Well today is just a great dissapointment for me, they didn't come and I need to live with my table lamp in my room. Is so dark here. This morning, some other things happen as well. I packed my detergent into my bag with a plastic bag outside, and this morning when I opened my bag, I realized the plastic bag got a hole there which may cause by the movement of stuff in the bag. So it ended up that all my stuff is full of detergent powder. I have to clean everything and at the end nearly late for lecture. In the lecture, I don't think is happy and fun and smooth for me as well. Then after that, I came home and I need to get water from the kitchen then I realized I loss my cup which I put in the kitchen but just now before dinner I found it apparently someone used it and didn't wash properly as well. After that my friends and I decided to go PEC (physical education centre, is a big sport centre with everything, including rock climbing as well) attend some class and pay by per entry. They are promoting that is only 1 pound per entry but we didn't realized the fine print and is only for membership for the summer which you divide it and get 1 pound per day. So today ended up I have to pay 2 pounds for it and realized that the class that I wanted to attend is canceled so wasted my money and ended up attend some other class. Then I loss my money in the pocket, few pounds. And before I reached the PEC I nearly sprain my leg because the floor is uneven but then I walked there everyday and there is nothing happened. What The XXXX and What The XXXX is happening today, I am really annoyed by all the things that happened today and the day ended with my mood spoiled. There goes my first day in Guthrie House. Oh well, I forgot to mention that I got lost on the way back PEC which is very near my university. I have no idea what happen to me..... Now there is 2 case report waiting for me. I think I will only do it tomorrow night..

The night before....

2007-09-09T20:33:00.000+01:00

Sitting in my room in front my table, my laptop is on which is only my right side and Gray's anatomy and Kieth Moore with a stack of notes about anatomy are in front of me. Tomorrow is my selective exam, I only started my selective for a week. Obviously I feel very weird the tonight. What should I do? I can't really remember everything and I didn't know the what is included in this exam. Am I study too little? Did I covered everything? I don't know. I seriously don't know. Tonight is a quiet night. I have no mood to study. I have no mood to study for few weeks. I just came to a new environment and a long holiday. Everything is not really on the track especially my study pace. So I seriously can't remember everything that I had study. What is the exam going to be tomorrow? I have no idea. I only know there is short answer question and 20 station of spot test in 2 hours. The exam is from 2 to 4. I have to admit that I am not prepared for this exam. Now I keep on flipping the book look through the practical questions and try to answer it. One part of me think that the night shouldn't end so fast so that I got more time to study, the other part of me hope that the time fly so that I can get over with the exam. But I am very confused now, this kind of pre-exam feeling I never experienced before. Looking outside, tonight not that cold, no moon, very dark and quiet. What a quiet night. People at my hometown they are sleeping, is midnight for them now. Some people here are enjoying the last night of this weekend. For the people who choose creaking hinges as student selected component, there is 13 of us. I guess that all of us are studying right? I think I should study as much as I can and tomorrow just try my best for it. Tomorrow night will have a different feeling maybe but it doesn't matter at the moment. I need to concentrate on my exam. Joints, muscles, ligaments, capsule and nerve I am coming... The night before....

Finally

2007-09-07T11:14:00.000+01:00

Finally I am done with the dissection of the ankle joint. After 3 days of formaldehyde that irritate my eye and nose which make me cry in dissection room for 3 days. Finally cutting all the flesh, fats and tendons off and reached the ligaments of the ankle joint but sad to said that I accidentally cut off the anterior talofibular ligament. Mmm let me describe what I think about human flesh, the muscle is just like tuna or salmon especially like the salmon sushi (sorry to my friend who like sushi) and the tendon is just like chicken meat which is very soft and smooth. Actually it is very interesting, you can learn alot. You can easily identify the tendon or muscle or ligament by just looking at the body instead of flipping the book here and there, turning the book upside down just to just to imagine the 3D version of human part with the muscle and ligament in it. Last time I am very blur and hard to remember the muscles and ligaments that passed the ankle joint underneath the retinaculum but now I am quite clear that which muscle pass through it with which nerve and blood vessel. So I strongly agree that dissection did help in learning anatomy rather than just learning from the atlas with your rich imagination of human body or plastic model becaus the colour is different, the colour of the nerve and blood vessels is not much difference. The only way to do it is by touching it. Now I am at the library using the computer while waiting for the next session of the class. My shirt now is fulled of formaldehyde and my pant got some of the human fat sticking on it just now. So I guess I have to wash the pants and clothes thoroughly. Next Monday is my exam, I can't imagine that I only started my student selected component for 1 week and exam is coming. Anyway really have to study for it since I am still in the holiday mood and my pace of studying is not back yet as well. Someone asked me whether I can eat or does it affect my appetite after dissection? I will say no, I even felt hungry while doing the dissection because the lunch time is coming. I can even eat tuna or chicken. Basically, dissection is not as horrible as you think. Is just part of the learning process which is very helpful.

Ligaments and Joints

2007-09-03T15:16:00.000+01:00

After my first day of student selected component, I realized I lost something. I lost all my memory about ligaments, joints and muscles. When the lecturer looked at me, I only can smile back and said sorry I can't answer that. Then the lecturer came and said did you do any dissection before? Sadly, I have to say no i didn't have any experience on dissection, but others have 2 years of dissection experience so I think I have to work harder for it. Hope I didn't cut anything wrong on Wednesday. Then the other lecturer asked where are you from? For my friend who are reading my blog, I don't think I need to tell you what I answered right? Then second question, did you do any Problem Base Learning aka PBL before in your previous university? This time is the time that I can say yes. Then she said oh great then you guys can guide the rest of the student of the group for PBL. I like Mmmmm. Actually PBL don't really need to guide right? Here the student didn't expose to PBL in first and second year. I think that the difficulty in doing twinning programme which a lot of things are common for you but is not in new university and something that is common at your new university is new for you. So anyway, hard work is needed. Now my hand is fulled of chicken smell with all the sauce after I marinate the chicken just now. Today is a sunny day and all my friends are not back yet even though I thought I will be the latest to reach home but seem like I am the earliest to be here except Patrick because both of us are in the same group. Now have to study for muscles, ligaments and joints for next week exam which i have 7 days to study for it and today is the first day of my module. Everything is going quite pack.

2007-09-02T00:38:00.001+01:00

A photo took from my handphone, so it might not be so clear but still the building is nice.

Time Fly

2007-09-02T00:04:00.000+01:00

Now is 2nd of September 2007, is the end of my second week in Belfast city. So usually friends and family will ask have you get use to the life? My friends from Belfast and prof. from QUB may ask how would you find Belfast? For the first question, I will say yes I think I had started to get used with the lifestyle here and the weather as well with rain all the time. However, my yes would be a yes for my lifestyle but not my academic. I still feel that the style is different from Malaysia and I hope can get used to it as well. For the second question, I will say Belfast is a nice city with 'nice' weather if without the rain but the rain is not too heavy so I think I enjoy it, and the weather is cooling compare to Malaysia which you can't walk outdoor without getting your shirt wet or maybe you can get a heat stroke if you don't use to walk under the sun all the time. Everything is within walking distance here so is quite convenient and is healthy to walk since I will be lazy to do exercise in the cold weather. The people here are friendly and polite except when some of them are drunk but the easiest way is too ignore them and try to not go out alone at night. So I would say that Belfast is a nice place especially my university is a great place to visit. So if you are coming to Belfast, please make sure yourself visit QUB as well, since it is a tourist spot here. Next week, my student selected component ie selective is going to start. I think is less than 36 hours but I am lost on what should I do during the SSC and how should I prepare for it. So at the end, I do nothing about it and just wait for the time to come. Some friend even asked me, do you miss your home and family. Definitely I miss my family, but is the time to leave home and survive on your own without your parent, so that you will gain more experience for your future use. At the end, I think is a right choice to come here

Another New Thing

2007-08-28T18:32:00.001+01:00

There is another new thing in my life in Belfast. For the past two and half year, one day I only attended two hours lecture a day excluding the problem case learning session, clinical skill learning session and hospital attachment. Today is my first day in Queen's University Belfast to attend the briefing aka lectures. The time of lectures are from morning 9.00 am till 4.00pm. Seriously it is a big change for me and I never attended such a long day in university for lecture since I finished my SAM at Taylors College.

Everything Is New

2007-08-27T18:25:00.000+01:00

Well here comes my new blog. Something old went off and something new came up. I think this is one of the cycle in my life. Now I am at the different phase of my life which include new environment, new friends, new university and new lifestyle. Everything is new except that my heart still contain my old friends. So my friends don't worry. We are still friends same as old time. Now I am at Belfast, Northern Ireland, to continue my medical degree in Queen's University of Belfast. Next three years, I may go through a different teaching style that I never try before and a different training as well. Really hope that i can make it for the three years.This three years again can create a great memory and make a mark in my life which is same as great memory from the past two and half year in IMU with my friends. Sometimes we just hope that the time will stop or the time will slow down but time really passes very fast. When you get to know someone or someplace well and settle down, then is the time that you should leave and move on to the next phase with everything new. At the end it is a cycle. EVERYTHING IS NEW